I am most guilty of

 Gluttony is what I am most guilty of. I don’t really get lazy or angry easily but can not control eating. As a result, I have gained a lot of weights since I came to Saipan. When I was in middle school, I was raised by my lovely mother and father in Korea. At that time, I did not have any ideas of gaining or losing weights. My every day life was like this. I go to school, and take classes. After school, I practice jump-rope in my club. My mom picks me up, and then I have snacks on my way to academy. The time when I am in an academy is when a normal person eats dinner. After I finish from my academy, I go home and have dinner at 11 p.m. which is the time for a normal person to sleep. I eat, take a little break, do my homework, and go to bed around 2 a.m. This was my routine life when I was in Korea. I came to Saipan since 9^th grade and decided to stay with Americans. I did not have any clues of what they eat but only knew few general foods such as hamburgers, spaghetti, and pizza. At that time, I thought I could bear them and make a living well. For Koreans such as me, it was hard to have American diet since it did not fill up our stomachs. I usually get hungry easily and always look for some food when I feel empty or boring. Being boring and being hungry are two different concepts. However, unconsciously, when I get bored, I usually go to kitchen and find something to eat. That was what I usually did when I first came to Saipan. After one year, I went back to Korea and my mother and all the others were surprised at me. I gained so much weights that my pretty face turned out not that pretty. I was shocked as well when I tried my old clothes. When I met my friends, they were also surprised at me and I was stressed out. The problem was that I get so greedy or whatever when I see and eat food. Since I was doing homestay, I pay for my all eating and living things. Perhaps, I thought my homestay fee would be wasted if I do not eat fully. So I start to eat more and more and when I see food that I am fond of, I could not stop eating. Of course, I got all the results from that. I feel my body heavy and unhealthy. There was nothing I can do but to regret. This guilt has been really hard for me to fix. I tired to be on a diet so many times but I found myself giving up after 3 days. And I get yo-yo effect from that which makes me fatter. I try myself not to be greedy or gluttony and to let them go. I should eat healthier and lightly by having more vegetables than meat or bread.